Drawers Anonymous

I kind of know what I have to do, but doing and knowing are two different things. But at least knowing is the first step.

Here are some drawinges:









I haven't been drawing as much lately. I think it has been less enjoyable because I know I'm not moving forward. Need to beef up the game.

P.S. People who want to buy SKB SB-1000 Ballpoint pens, I got 'em in stock again. Send an email to cheesecakepie@gmail.com for details.

Couple of recent sketches.

I am still drawing. Sporadically, but I haven't abandoned it. What a fool I've been - for months questioning my motivations (or lack thereof) about art. Filled with doubt and fear of whether it is something worth pursuing, whether I can make something of myself. What had it become about? Was it about seeking approval or popularity? Was it about emulation of idols? Was it about money, or wanting to be different? Was it a revenge fantasy?

But I remember now. It's because ever since I was little and holding a crayon and drawing on walls, nothing else has ever felt more right. It's because drawing has been a faithful companion even when I've neglected it.

I seem to have proportionally as many good drawing days as I have good hair days.
Which is not very many.

Here's a new sketchbook I bound - 400 pages of offwhite textured 80 lb stock, a behemoth of a sketchbook, but I think I'm going to make my next one thinner but larger in page size.





As well as some drawings that mark an inauspicious beginning.

So I'm sure some of you have heard of the James Jean pen, the SKB SB-1000 0.5mm black ballpoint pen. If you would like to get your hands on the pen, please send an email to cheesecakepie@gmail.com

No, the pen does not give you magic drawing ability, but I like that it doesn't skip, can vary in tone the way a pencil does, and has a nice tone of black. It also comes in red, blue, green and purple, and 0.7mm black.





In other news, this is what I've been doing at work currently. Printing and designing invitations and the like. Usually customers don't allow for very much creativity, ie. they show you an existing design and want you to copy it, or they have very weird taste and you just have to oblige with their love for Comic Sans. I imagine this is akin to when an art director tells you to mimic a popular style or chooses the rough sketch you like the least. I pretty much try to make myself content wherever I am by being creative somehow, whether it be a boring wedding or the subway or a day job. So I've been trying to create some samples that are both economically effective (due to the recession) but aesthetically pleasing at the same time. I really like the look of old engravings or drawings.




And finally a few sketches. I haven't been drawing as much as I should. I drew this doll like girl on the ride home yesterday, with her disproportionately large but lovely head. And I drew a tree trunk during a lunch break the other day, which made me feel really calm.

When it is June, I intend to wake up.

This is a personal piece on the subject of identity and persona. I'm going to use it for the cover of this book of advice I've been writing to myself. The draftsmanship needs work, but I'm looking forward to creating more work. It's been a while since I graduated from school and it's time to take art seriously again.




With the aid of my sister's airbook with photobooth, I drew some misshapen self portraits.




Some subway stuff. Haven't been drawing very much lately. Probably will not be able to do Sketchbook month. I need to find the joy in drawing again.




I need to stop caring what people think. Or should I? I really don't know the answer to that one.